Staring, blank mind, seeing all around but not taking it in.
Hour after hour just trying to decide what to do — Nothing comes
The day goes by to be replaced by another — Much the same — The blank stare
Is this depression — burnout — Just not really caring anymore
Feeling nothing, staring, glazed over, no enthusiasm for anything
Is this all there is to life — time is passing by so quickly — nothing achieved
Can’t wait for it to end — Maybe tomorrow I will find my enthusiasm — My zest for life
It didn’t happen — The motivation wasn’t there — Another day gone.
But it could be different — If only I would activate what I know to do, want to do, dream of
If only I could believe in myself to step out
If only I knew how to find the people who I resonate with — But why should I?
Look at me — Who would be interested in what I have to say — I’m finding it tough
I live with me.
We each have a calling, a job to do, if we don’t do it we and the world will be the poorer
And the job will get left undone — A hole in the universe that only we can fill
What a shame — To leave this world with the job undone, the song unsung
Yet even guilt cannot motivate me — So what can, who can?
Ah Yes and there it is — A quiet prayer — An immediate answer
“To everything there is a season, a time for every Purpose under heaven”
So if I’m not feeling it, if I’m not aligned, focused, enthused, then maybe
Just maybe it’s not the right time to do what I think I should do…
Or — I’m not listening — or — Hearing and ignoring — or — Just Stubborn
Lacking self confidence, faith, belief and the strength to step out!
But — The calling I do hear it
It is a cry from the heart, a deeper knowing that will not be quenched
That will no longer allow me to ignore it — The other things I think of doing?
They are the distraction, the cause of dissatisfaction, they are earthly and not worth my time
My calling of which I am called — It is that, I choose to dwell on, give my heart to
And now I know I will rise out of a life half lived — The living dead
To the life I am called to — The work I still have to do — With it will come the clarity
The enthusiasm — The love for life that can only be fulfilled through the calling.
Now I am ready, now my mind is active, now I feel the rising in my spirit
Now is the Time.